Genie

The Lady of white is no fairy tale
She is just the beginning of hell
She will break your heart and make you cheat
Make you think your life is complete
The diamond she holds in her eyes
Eventually become the ones you despise
No matter how hard you try to forget
She is only satisfied with a life of regret
She can appear in so many ways
And leave your mind blank for so many days
Beware of this lady and her trick
For her pleasures are rather sick
She's a genie a bottle of smoke
No laughing matter no joke
She'll make you run make you hide
She will take everything including your pride
She'll make it a challenge, give you a test
And she will smile when you are obsessed
So if you know this GENIE of today
It's your soul for you I pray
By: Joseph E Simonetti

I used the cartoon because the real thing is just way to disturbing for me. Especially when you see someone you love partaking of "Genie". I have lost a couple from this ugly drug and addiction. A very painful way to lose someone when it is self inflicted and they could have saved themselves but lose all desire to do so. Very selfish if you ask me. Being around a loved one that has this is a complicated drama continually walking on egg shells.  The highs and lows, mood swings, paranoia, and lack of interest in life. You want to do all you can to help them but realistically you just end up enabling them. THEY have to want the change for anything to progress towards the healing. 


Good heart ed loving souls consumed in a dark spiral. I hope the ones I have lost out of my life will finally see a light at the end of the tunnel and all the ones that adore them there ready to support and love them. They have so much to offer everyone and we have so much to give them.

"Friends"

Where is that fine line? I have damn near douched my relationships down to just having the important true ones in my life. With Facebook now, you collect people you know on your "Friends" list. I find the site great for networking. That is how I used my MySpace years ago for music and bands.

What is "Friendship"?

Defined: For me anyways is someone that is there for you, has your back and values you as who you are and are unconditional.

Why do we use the term so loosely? I hardly ever hear "He's an acquaintance of mine" or "That is my co-worker" maybe "Someone that I interacted with in the past" Is it that it sounds better to have so many "Friends" for a feeling of acceptance?

I am really reevaluating this anymore. I have over extended myself in trying to relate with people in my life that I find incredible but at most I am the one doing all the work. Does not anyone have the time anymore to give of yourself and help another? Especially a so called "friend"? Are our lives to cluttered with unnecessary activities that we forget what is truly needed in this world? Service of ourselves? But where is that line drawn as well? When is giving to much that you compromise yourself and take to much from ones self? What is enough that you aren't selfish?

Ugly Behavior

Definition of UGLY

1

: frightful, dire

2

a : offensive to the sight : hideousb : offensive or unpleasant to any sense

3

: morally offensive or objectionable <corruption—the ugliest stain of all>

4

a : likely to cause inconvenience or discomfort <the ugly truth>

To whom it may concern:

When one has a disagreement with another, it is between the two of you. Now.... WHY, would you want to take an entire establishment and innocent bystanders that have NOTHING to do with the disagreement?

Wouldn't you be a bigger person to WALK AWAY? If you don't like it, why waste so much energy involving yourself in it trying to destroy it?  Why the animosity? Could it be because deep down you still want to be on that persons good side or a part of that persons creation?

Why destroy others welfare, lively hood, and entertainment? Oh yeah, because you are a douche! Well I am here to say..... Some people just might not want their lives cleansed by the likes of you!!

It's those innocent ones that are pissed! Sometimes when the wrong ones are pissed enough it might be best to find a new circle to go start over in!

Word of the wise..... NEVER, EVER talk shit on anyone unless you can back it up or it's a very well known fact. You never know who might be involved in that person that you are talking to and it can take you down! BIGGEST known fact in Hollywood!

My futures So Bright I've Got To Wear Shades!!

ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! UGGGGG! HOW?!?

Took them off my head.... went to put them back one and...... the end of the arm is broken off!! What the crap? What is it with me and my cheap sunglasses? It's hopeless to keep a pair. I'm afraid to get expensive ones. I LOVE my cheap, big, bling, sunglasses! I fall in love with a pair then..... crap! and I tell you it's not that I drop them, I don't sit on them, i don't trow them, I'm pretty kind and gentle to my eye wear.... they.... just.... casually... fall apart!

I did however step on "Satan's" glasses... THAT was an accident.... crushed one side.. Wish I had tem around to get a pic of but I do not know what he did with them... He WAS trying to wear them to see out of the one leans left. Took my cousin Nicole out to main.... She hates the snow. She slipped and fell getting into the cab and we had no clue she lost them off her head until I went back to look for them and found only the front top of the frames.

My only not 'black" pair. Yep arm broken off... *sigh you can see they are cracked around the lenses as well had to glue that. As soon as I did and was like Oh Yeah we are good the same day that arm fell right off!

My Diors... Yes I said cheap sunglasses but these were a gift from a friend in Vegas (I didn't pay for them). Damn it!! Yes see the are is broke right off!!

My favorite Hollywood Blvd glasses from when I was living and working out in Holy-weird! These bum me out the most... they are my most favs!

Ok.... why do I still have all these broken glasses?? Well... deep down I am hoping they will fix themselves or can be fixed so I can have my favorite cheap eye wear back on my face where they belong!!

"Pretty Girl"

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.

she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
the killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love. [2x]

pretty girl... pretty girl...

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out: you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you cry.
it's the way that he's in your mind.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.
it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love...

My Beautiful Mess Shit Show life theme song....

I give up....

I am giving up on all this dating crap! Men my age are insecure and desperate. I love how they try twisting it around on me to. I don't answer the phone right when they call, or text right back Im an a-hole.

First off I just met you mmmm kay. 2ndly I DO have a life. Single mom, full time job and established friendships and social life. You are NOT going to be priority when I have just met you. THAT comes with time. Further more I HATE TEXTING! I will NOT have a conversation in text. If I am worth it enough, call my sexy ass! Get some balls now and quit hiding behind your computers and cell phones!

Get this I am an a-hole for being honest to, If there is no connection.. there just is never going to be one. I will remain  friends and maybe introduce you to some of my friends. I guess that was an ego killer. TOUGH TITTY!

Where to meet decent men that are not extreamly damaged by other women (mommies included), drugs, or alcohol? That have at least a running vehicle and an ok job? Don't say church either... that didn't go over to well ... see above paragraphs on that except now you have to see him every sunday. Dating specialist did say Ski resorts.... well.... can't get the kid to go sking! (Won't go alone-- what a waste in a season lift pass)

I'm pretty forgiving and know that anyone is coming with "some" baggage. Hell it will take someone as forgiving as I am to put up with my crazy life! Just the one's that will are ones trying to latch on to someone real quick and I am not attracted to for what ever reason. Those types of relationships don't work out. You end up finally getting to know the person and it turns south real quick and gets messy!

So.....  I would like a roommate, friend, lover, NO expectations, attractive, tattooed, in to rock, preferably a musician, have a vehicle, and a half way decent job to at least pay half the bills, loves only me, says all the right things, helps out with chores and on occasion treats me like a princess, takes me around his friends, likes my cooking, thinks I am sexy and I am attracted to....

Ok I am in a dream world here now I know for sure.... All I know I went out of my "NORM" so to speak with different guy types and have decided to stick to my own kind... whatever that is....

There are those among us who are blessed with the power to save what is loved by another.

But powerless to use this blessing for love themselves.