Monday, February 28, 2011

"Pretty Girl"

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.

she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
the killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.
and that's what you get for falling again;
you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love. [2x]

pretty girl... pretty girl...

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out: you can never get him out of your head.

it's the way that he makes you cry.
it's the way that he's in your mind.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.
it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love...

My Beautiful Mess Shit Show life theme song....

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I give up....

I am giving up on all this dating crap! Men my age are insecure and desperate. I love how they try twisting it around on me to. I don't answer the phone right when they call, or text right back Im an a-hole.

First off I just met you mmmm kay. 2ndly I DO have a life. Single mom, full time job and established friendships and social life. You are NOT going to be priority when I have just met you. THAT comes with time. Further more I HATE TEXTING! I will NOT have a conversation in text. If I am worth it enough, call my sexy ass! Get some balls now and quit hiding behind your computers and cell phones!

Get this I am an a-hole for being honest to, If there is no connection.. there just is never going to be one. I will remain  friends and maybe introduce you to some of my friends. I guess that was an ego killer. TOUGH TITTY!

Where to meet decent men that are not extreamly damaged by other women (mommies included), drugs, or alcohol? That have at least a running vehicle and an ok job? Don't say church either... that didn't go over to well ... see above paragraphs on that except now you have to see him every sunday. Dating specialist did say Ski resorts.... well.... can't get the kid to go sking! (Won't go alone-- what a waste in a season lift pass)

I'm pretty forgiving and know that anyone is coming with "some" baggage. Hell it will take someone as forgiving as I am to put up with my crazy life! Just the one's that will are ones trying to latch on to someone real quick and I am not attracted to for what ever reason. Those types of relationships don't work out. You end up finally getting to know the person and it turns south real quick and gets messy!

So.....  I would like a roommate, friend, lover, NO expectations, attractive, tattooed, in to rock, preferably a musician, have a vehicle, and a half way decent job to at least pay half the bills, loves only me, says all the right things, helps out with chores and on occasion treats me like a princess, takes me around his friends, likes my cooking, thinks I am sexy and I am attracted to....

Ok I am in a dream world here now I know for sure.... All I know I went out of my "NORM" so to speak with different guy types and have decided to stick to my own kind... whatever that is....

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

There are those among us who are blessed with the power to save what is loved by another.

But powerless to use this blessing for love themselves.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

The Family Table: the rescuing hug

The Family Table: the rescuing hug:
 I got this from a fellow blogger that I follow and felt that I needed to share it with my readers as well. <3

 My 6 year old daughter Eve came home with a backpack full of notes from her school on Thursday.  This story with photo was among the papers.  It was sent home to remind parents of the power of a hug.  Easy enough to remember to hug our small children, but honestly in a busy week I sometimes forget that my teenage son needs a hug everyday too.  Did anyone hug him today?  Now I make a point to hug all my children before they leave and when they arrive home and sometimes just because.  This story was published in Reader's Digest, May 1996.  I was so touched by this I had to share...
In their first week of life, twins Kyrie and Brielle were separated in their respective incubators and one was not expected to live.  A hospital nurse fought against the hospital rules and placed the babies in one incubator.  When they were placed together, the healthier of the two threw an arm over her sister in an endearing embrace.  The smaller baby's heart rate stabilized and her temperature rose to normal.
They both survived and are thriving.  In fact, the two girls went home to share a crib and still snuggle.  The hospital changed their policy after they saw the effect of putting the two girls together and now they bed multiples together.
Let us not forget to embrace those whom we love and never underestimate the power of a hug!

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Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Beautiful People

A buddy of mine told me after I had moved here to Park City Utah that I now lived in the land of "The Beautiful People".  I wasn't sure how to take that. I hear the Reputation and misconception Park City has from the Utahan's outside of here. "You live in Park City? You must be rich!" (Yeah far from it!) "You live in Park City? You must be a snob!" (still far from it)

There are Snobby, pretentious, a-holes all over. From my travels I have found them everywhere I go. You get into a higher income level living area where they actually take care of the place and don't trash it and you are a snob... nice.

I have met PLENTY of down to earth individuals here that do not expect you to be on their income level to hang out with them. Same for living in Hollywood and people living in Beverly Hills! If anyone is like that I disregard them, let it be and move on.

Which brings me to the latest movie I have watched: Dinner For Schmucks

What a great message this movie has! Be yourself! Do not let others live rent free in your mind!! You need not change for anyone but YOURSELF! If they cannot accept you for who you are you do not need them in your life! Most cases they are mirroring you and have the issue of not accepting themselves for who they are and are the ones insecure!

"I love you just as you are." I make the upmost effort just to accept people for who they are. I have the hardest by being critical to the ones that are closest and I am working on being more understanding and accepting of them. My insecurities sometimes find me judging others and it is something I do not like of myself. That to I am working on.

Be patient and take the time to listen and communicate. You might understand where someones day is going, make a new friend, or can be a link in making someones day just a little easier. In return it will come back to you!

Pay it forward. Live. Laugh. Love.

~Don t try to be someone your not, wait for the person who likes you for who you are. You were born an original, don't die a copy.~

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

SALIVA New Single!!!

Saliva's new single, released Feb 1st. LOVE LOVE LOVE this band and excited for the new album! I am pretty sure they will come to Utah and I will be there! Album will be available March 22, 2011.

Beautiful Dangerous

I am FEELING it!!!

I don't know who you are now
Mystery drenches my brain
I wanna jump deep into your mouth
Cuz something tell's me it's gonna rain

I hear the drum rolls thumping
And my heart starts jumping
And that's when I spit on the floor
Now my head's exploding
And your gun is dirty
So I'm guessing I'm on a roll
Well it's a fine time
Looking for a wine time man
And you said "baby you ready to play"
Well come right on this rollercoaster
Cuz it aint over, it aint over

Now we're on this planet
I'm in love with all your dangers, dangers
We can live forever
I can be your favorite angel, angel
Beautiful Dangerous

We acted smooth like rain
Save all flame that we'll light
You can be sick, I'll be nasty
Cuz sometimes it's more fun to fight

Being Single ~Valentines Day

"Being broken hearted is like having this really horrible freedom" ~ Florence Welch

I was just reminded that Monday is Valentines Day... Great. Most overrated holiday EVER!! Am I slightly bitter? Maybe just a little, but really.... Shouldn't it be valentines all the time with someone that you care about and love? Seriously!

I am loving my "Horrible Freedom" No expectaions, no letting someone down, no planning my events around someone else, no having to explain myself and NO JEALOUSY!

This Valentines I will be with the ones that mean the most to me, but I already do that everyday anyways. That and I will be working that day at the office. Just another Monday it will be I am very sure. I don't mind receiving flowers if at "anytime of the year" you would like to have some delivered to me :D

The only thing I liked about Superbowl was SLASH!

Puck The Fackers!

I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes. ~Pink

Great evening!

Had my friends Diana and Jelmer over for dinner last night. Cooked up some steaks and asparagas on the grill and made some quinoa w/ peppers, onions, mushrooms, garlic and cheese. VERY yummy side dish!

Diana brought over a bottle of Red wine. I know I know.... It was nice 1 1/2 glasses and I was fine! No urge for more. I think a lot of it has to do with that I am finally healing from the "break-up". I'll admit him leaving did me a lot of good. No more self medicating for me! "I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes."  ~Pink

Next was a few games of "UNO"! OH, Hell it has been so long since I have sat down with adult friends and played cards! SOOOOOO much fun! Diana was funny apologizing every time she had to sit down a draw 2! haha She won a game and so did Sam. What a great relaxing "Clean" fun night at home with friends. Cannot wait to do it again!

Thursday, February 3, 2011


Sitting here a reminiscing thought came to my head, can't even tell you what triggered it off either. I was 18, sluffing school. The radio station that I listened to at the time was having a giveaway. It was a week long event for them Nominate someone, nominate a politician then on Friday why you as a listener thought you deserved a case of corn nuts. I called in, and won. The station was KJQ with Bill Allread and Kerri Jackson. My reason why I thought I deserved a case of those nuts you ask?

It goes like this:

Nuts in the morning
Nuts at night
Nuts make you days nice and bright
Eat them here, Eat them there
You can eat them anywhere
And because of this little rhyme
I think the nuts should all be mine....

Thank goodness they broke up the flavors! I am pretty sure if memory serves the originals were the last to go! :) ~YUM